This reflection was written by current volunteer Rachel Mustain.  Rachel serves in San Francisco, California, in the Corporate Work Study Program office at Immaculate Conception Academy, a Cristo Rey high school sponsored by the Mission San Jose Dominicans.
Advent is the season of waiting. These four weeks are a season of waiting for
 the feast of Christmas. The waiting can be eager anticipation for 
Christmas day, budding excitement in the traditions of putting up 
lights, decorating a tree, and guessing what presents this year will 
bring or it can be waiting with groaning and frustration that there are 
still more than two weeks before we have a break from school. Either 
way, we wait.
When
 I was growing up, Advent was not the beginning of Christmas; it was its
 own season. My elementary school did not have a Christmas concert; we 
had an Advent program. My family did not put up decorations until after 
school was out, and we did not buy a Christmas tree until the last 
minute.We did have an Advent wreath that we placed in the center of our 
dinner table and lit every night (which meant candle one had to be 
replaced half way through the season). 
Our
 Advent wreath was not a typical wreath of green ferns. It was made of 
wood and on it were carved symbols of the Christian faith. There was an 
image of a lamb, a fish, an anchor, the tree of Jesse, the star of 
David. These images are symbols of our history, symbols for Jesus that 
were painted in the catacombs of early Christians, symbols with meanings
 that are rooted in scripture and many from our Hebrew ancestors. These 
ancient symbols remind me now in this Advent season of how the 
Israelites waited. The thousands of years from the time of Abraham to 
the coming of the promised Messiah makes the four weeks of Advent seem pretty short.
Still
 it is not just during Advent that we wait for Christ’s coming. Today’s 
reading in Isaiah promises, “the LORD will provide for all peoples a 
feast of rich food and choice wines, juicy, rich food and pure, choice 
wines. He will destroy the veil that veils all peoples, the web that is 
woven over all nations. He will destroy death forever. The Lord GOD will
 wipe away the tears from all faces.” We are still waiting for this day,
 the day when there will be no more hunger, when there will be no more 
death from sickness or war, when there will be no more sadness but only 
joy. Our world is not yet like this, but we have this hope in Jesus.
Unlike the Israelites, we no longer wait for the coming of the Messiah. We celebrate on Christmas that he has come.
 Jesus said, "Blessed are the eyes that see what you see. For I say to 
you, many prophets and kings desired to see what you see, but did not 
see it, and to hear what you hear, but did not hear it." We have heard 
Jesus’ message of redemption, and we can see his work being done in and 
through our lives. We still wait for the full coming of God’s kingdom, 
but we can build up his kingdom here on earth by the way that we wait 
for this second coming.
In
 our society, waiting is not something we like to do. We are used to 
instant gratification. We want to decide what we want to eat and then 
get it immediately at a fast food restaurant. We want to lose weight in a
 crash diet. We want to know all the answers as soon as we ask them by 
having the internet at our fingertips at all times. We get angry when 
there is a line at a convenience store or traffic on the interstate. We 
just can’t stand to wait. We even say “We can’t wait.”
 This instant satisfaction is contrary to God’s way. He took thousands 
of years to come to earth as the promised Messiah. It has been thousands
 of years since he came and the end of times the disciples expected in 
their lifetimes still has not come. God does not work instantly. He 
knows that we get true satisfaction when we take time. When we spend 
time to get fresh ingredients and cook a meal at home, when we make 
lasting changes to our lifestyle, we are healthier and feel better. When
 we research our questions, we find the true answer. When we spend more 
time in a line at the store we can have meaningful conversations with 
those around us. Good things come to those who wait.
The
 readings at Mass during Advent tell us how to wait. We hear the message
 to be watchful and ready. We must be aware to be able to see the coming
 of what we are waiting for. Again in our culture, we are constantly 
tuned in through media and internet, but are we really aware? Are we 
conscious of our surroundings, of the people physically present around 
us? We must be aware to see Jesus’ coming because he is here, now, and 
we will only find him if we are aware to his presence in each other. We 
must also be aware of ourselves. During Advent we are given the 
opportunity to receive the sacrament of Reconciliation. This sacrament, 
this sign of God’s grace, is meant to bring us to greater self 
awareness. Through reconciliation we take a long, loving look at 
ourselves and become aware of Jesus’ presence in us and then bring our 
weaknesses to the light to burn away the darkness that can get trapped 
within us. 
Advent
 is a season of waiting, but it does not mean we do nothing. It is a 
time set aside for us to prepare for Christ’s coming. We become more 
aware of ourselves and our world and we see that the light of Christ is 
present here even amidst the growing darkness of these winter days. Each
 week as we light another candle in the wreath, Jesus’ light gets 
brighter. If each of us lets that light penetrate our own darkness- our 
fears, anxieties, worries, shortcomings- and at every opportunity shed 
that light on another, St. Dominic’s vision to set the world on fire for
 Christ will come true. A Dominican friar in the thirteenth century Meister Eckhart said , “What
 good is it to me if Mary gave birth to the Son of God fourteen hundred 
years ago and I do not also give birth to the Son of God in my time and 
in my culture?  We are all meant to be Mothers of God." For the 
remainder of Advent, we are waiting to celebrate the birth of Jesus into
 world. Let us not wait in vain, but let us be living in a way that 
brings Jesus and his promises for joy and fulfillment into our own world
 and the world of those around us. 
 
